Monday, April 13, 2015

Day 1 or 1000

Bedtime. Finding I need to be DONE quickly at night. Fine. Fine. Fine... Fine... DONE. Now. Go away. Leave me alone. 

Barclay has been cowering. Odo bit him yesterday and snapped at him over a bone today. The fact that he's unhappy makes me unhappy. 

I'm dwelling in the past lately. My mental addiction. A limerence. My I'm having a difficult time not sticking on E. I listened to Blue Plate Fellas today - somewhere I have not been able to wander because it hurt too much. Finding more stones to turn over and expose the raw. Eventually, perhaps, these will all be upset and scab over so he and me and us no longer hurt.