Saturday, August 30, 2008

The Blue Room


I recently learned of an fellow Alumni who took a terrible path. Read the article. I was inspired to dive deep into a place I didn't necessarily want to go. This news affected me strongly, not only as a victim but now as a mother. Out came this song.













The Blue Room
Listen my little one
You’ve seen through a rosey calm
Where are these monsters from?
Their mothers upside down

And I hate and I hate breadcrumbs left in the cold
And I hate and I hate plucking of a red rose
Where you can go

Wearing these pantyhose
What are they running from?
They know he’s an angels face
With a devils gun

And they hate and they hate bloomers lost in the snow
And they hate and they hate icicles in birthday clothes
Now you can go

How could I get lost on a blue day?
How long til I get these feet underneath me?
Hold tight while I scream “hope that I bleed”
Inside I wouldn’t mind if I died in the blue room

Inside your Blue Room
Under a blood red moon
You want my union
Lost in a scream from a silent coup

And I hate and I hate when the lights are out
And I hate and I hate when you push me down
You can go

How could I get lost on a blue day?
How long til I get these feet underneath me?
Hold tight while I scream “hope that I bleed”
Inside I wouldn’t mind if you died in the blue room

Monday, August 18, 2008

John's New Tattoo


Yesterday was a great day! I worked on John's Celtic Snake tattoo. It's been a challenge to say the least! John and I worked together on the design then I drew it up. It's a pretty rocking tattoo actually! As you can see in the pic, there's a knotted snake, with celtic knots as the scales. Woven in and out of that is vines and ivy. The snake head has a celtic trinity for mother, maiden, & crone. The head isn't done; needs shading. It'll need touchups, and some of the vines we'd like to add some more brown. Tattooed by me, Emily Jayne.

Friday, August 15, 2008

New Song! "See It My Way"


I wrote a new song today. I've been struggling for months and months to be creative at all, let alone pull a song together. I have been able to write music, but no lyrics. It just comes out of the piano into my hands. The lyrics; that requires more brain power. I need my wits about me to weave words together in a way that pleases me. I can't say my wits were there today, but I'm having a pretty darn good day overall. Guess something was in the stars. A completely new one jumped out.
I got to thinking about politics and relationships. After seeing Dark Knight and reading Angels and Demons, I have been thinking about political maneuvering. Here you go:











In this game we don’t keep score
I hear winning’s an elusive whore
She’s as easily mine as she is yours, is yours, is yours
With an ace in the hole

The last time you checked in
Our black and white worlds changing
We’re feeling underwater, will we sink or swim, or swim, or swim
Not loving my new fins

But you’re saying my love’s out of tune
And that you don’t mean to be rude
But you were holding all the cards
From the very start

You’re saying baby please won’t you stay
Stay and won’t you see it my way
I promise baby I won’t complain
A-baby, won’t you see it my way?

We’re tumbling out of control
I can only watch while it takes hold
Fear of emptiness sets in, in my skin, my skin, my skin
It’s our colors changing

While I'm ugly, I'm free
Don’t you know that it hurts me
I guess I won’t have to worry bout a thing, bout things, bout things
About your “thing”

But you’re saying my love’s out of tune
And that you don’t mean to be rude
But you were holding all the cards
From the very start

You’re saying baby please won’t you stay
Stay and won’t you see it my way
I promise baby I won’t complain
A-baby, won’t you see it my way?

Sometimes we love ourselves best alone
No ones’ home

Now you’re saying my love’s out of tune
And that you don't mean to be rude
But you were holding all the cards
From the very start

You’re saying baby please won’t you stay
Stay and won’t you see it my way
I promise baby I won’t complain
A-baby, won’t you please just stay?

Stay and won’t you see it my way, see it my way?





Now you can check out the video: YouTube

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Sara Bareilles - Love Song


Well, it took me way too long. I know a lot of people are into Sara Bareilles, but I was avoiding her because she's on every fricking ad on TV these days. One day, while browsing YouTube, I came across her video for Love Song. I can't say I love the video, but I realized that I should take this lady a little more seriously. She plays the piano. She's got a quirkiness that seems familiar. Hmm? Wonder where? Also, I just found out it was produced by Eric Rosse. Yup. None other than Tori Amos' early producer. I checked out Sara's complete CD on her website. I'm going to pick up the CD.

The Sims 3 Traits


This is a list of all the confirmed traits that will appear in The Sims 3 so far. The traits are a new system which will make Sims more unique, each Sim will have a selection of 5 traits which will define how the react and communicate with Sims around them.
All in all there will be 80 traits. Each Trait will have a specific manner in the way a Sim might act in a certain situation, for example a Loner Sims will not want to get married while a Nosy Sims will be poking around in another Sims business all the time.










Adverserial
Artistic
Athletic
Brave
Charismatic
Childish
Clumsy
Commitment Issues
Conversationalist
Creative
Cursed
Daredevil
Dreamer
Easily Bored
EVIL
Excitable
Family-Oriented
Flirty
Fortunate
Friendly
Frugal
Genius
Gloomy
Good Sense of Humor
Good
Green Thumbs
Gourmet
Grumpy
Handy
Hot-Headed
Hydrophobic
Idealistic
Inappropriate
Insensitive
Kleptomaniac
Light Sleeper
Loner
Lucky
Mooch
Natural Cook
Neat
Nice
Nosy
Outdoorsperson
Over-Emotional
Paranoid
Partier
Perfectionist
Pizza Lover
Playful
Romantic
Rude
Schmoozer
Shy
Slob
Socialite
Tramp
Unforgiving
Unlucky
Vegeterian
Whiney
Workaholic
Worrywart

Some More Books I've Been Reading...


Okay. Since I've been so under the weather lately, I've found myself just pouring in and absorbing books! No surprise to the rest of my extended family, who are big readers. I'm sure they're thinking "what took that girl so long to come around?!" I have gone through phases in my life, but nothing like this. I'm getting through a novel every two days. I fear at this rate, the local library will soon be inadequate. In the past, I've been playing the computer (The Sims2 or surfing the net.) Since I'm in the long haul with my health, this is far more peaceful. Here's a taste of the latest:

Tweak; Growing Up on Methamphetamines by Nic Sheff
Deception Point by Dan Brown
Girls In Trucks by Katie Crouch
Twisted Triangle;A Famous Crime Writer, a Lesbian Love Affair, and the FBI Husband's Violent Revenge by Caitlin Rother

Sunday, August 10, 2008

On Neuroscience and the Soul

An amusing spot to hang out...

Check it out.

Electrical Sensitivity & Hypersensitivity

Can you believe it...?


What is Electrical Hypersensitivity (EHS)?

Electrical hypersensitivity (EHS) is a combination of up to three factors:

a natural sensitivity, similar to other idiopathic or allergic reactions, which is not typical of the general population.
sensitisation by some trigger, which could be one, or more, of a variety of commonly encountered substances.
sensitisation by some incident, which has the capability of damaging the bioelectrochemical communication within the body.


Some people are electrically sensitive, that is they are aware of the presence of electromagnetic fields (EMFs), but are not adversely affected by them. Other people may or may not be aware of the presence of EMFs, but can become seriously ill in their presence. These people we refer to as electrically hypersensitive (EHS). People who have developed EHS have a physiological disorder, characterized by neurological and idiopathic reactions, that noticeably appear or intensify near sources of EMFs such as electrical appliances, especially VDUs (computer monitors), power lines, fluorescent lights, mobile phones, cordless phones, wireless computers (wLANs), mobile phone base stations, etc.

Being EHS means experiencing recurring feelings of stress or illness when near an EMF source. Any noticeable, recurring ill health that is triggered by an electromagnetic field, and that diminishes or disappears away from the EMF source, constitutes a case of electrical hypersensitivity. While symptoms may diminish quickly after the exposure is reduced, it can take several days, weeks or occasionally months if the person has become severely sensitised, for the effects to disappear.

It is not yet known whether EHS is an independent condition, or a kind of Multiple Environmental Sensitivity Syndrome, linked possibly also to Multiple Chemical Sensitivity Syndrome.

For EHS sufferers living in a high EMF environment, it is like a person with auditory sensitivity trying to carry on normal life with someone shouting in both ears all the time.

Many electrically sensitive people seem to have quite dry skin and can carry high electrostatic charges on their body. Not only can other people experience a 'zap' when touching the person, but the electrostatic charges can also be transferred to electronic equipment causing equipment to malfunction. This can sometimes give an appearance of clumsiness or ineptitude, which can lead to a lack of confidence in using electrical equipment. This is quite concerning when young people, even in pre-school nurseries, are being exposed to computers, and they may develop this sensitivity, which can lead to a lifelong lack of confidence and self-esteem problems.


How many people does EHS affect?

People who have EHS develop different symptoms, for reasons that are poorly understood. Some people will react to power-frequency electric fields, some to magnetic fields and some to both. They may (or they may not) also react to radiofrequency fields such as those transmitted by the mobile phone networks, some reacting to the phones, some to the masts, and some to both. Some people will only react to radiofrequency fields and not to power-frequency fields. Some people will even react to sunlight, another part of the EMF spectrum.

Because of this the condition is not an easy one to diagnose. People with EHS often cannot go into hospital, even to visit. Hospitals are full of electrically powered equipment, some giving off very high EMFs, and hospitals have fluorescent lights, a common trigger for EHS and intolerable to most EHS people.

The incidence of EHS seems to be slightly higher in women than in men, and there appear to be significant day to day variations in their sensitivity. Many people with EHS have lower incomes and may be unemployed. These variations may be explained, at least in part, by difference in Health and Safety practices, especially with regard to chemical (and other) exposures in lower paid jobs, and the fact that EHS can lead to the inability to work in a 'normal' environment.

The social, work and financial lives of EHS sufferers are likely to be affected by the fact that fluorescent lights are used in public offices (making it hard to make claims for, or to draw, Social Security benefits), shops, libraries, theatres, cinemas, concert halls, restaurants, churches, trains, trams and buses.

A study by the Irish Doctors Environmental Association reported that half the people reporting ill-health effects as a result of living near to mobile phone base stations were unable to work due to the severity of the symptoms. They also led a very restricted social life, feeling like 'prisoners' in their own homes, which were not always comfortable places for them to be either.

Even cars have electrical and electronic equipment (power wiring, fan motors, computerised controls and dashboards) that can disturb electrically hypersensitive people, especially in the front seat.

Many trains, railway stations and planes now contain wireless computing systems, so that passengers can access the internet 'on the move'. City centres are being covered by WiMAX systems, making access for EHS sufferers ever more difficult. Neighbours who are 'ham' radio operators can, even unwittingly, make an EHS neighbour's life almost unbearable. A nearby lamp-post height mobile phone mast can make a house uninhabitable by an EHS person. They may not even be able to go down a road where one of these masts is situated. This makes living a 'normal' life almost impossible in severe cases of EHS.

It is generally accepted that probably between 3% and 7% of the population are EHS to some degree and maybe up to 35% show some mild indications of electro-stress.


Read more here:

http://www.ei-resource.org/illness-information/related-conditions/electrical-sensitivity-&-hypersensitivity/

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Northern Flicker


Today I found a Northern Flicker in the yard. I kept hearing a call that I wasn't used to... So I got out the specs and took a look into the trees. Sure enough, after about 3 minutes, I found a Flicker clinging to a dead tree trunk. Right next to it was a little one. They pretty much just hung there for about 10 minutes, not moving at all. Only to look around. It was pretty cool!


Dan Brown

I've just started Angels & Demons by Dan Brown. Yup. The same as The DaVinci Code. John recommended I read it after he read them both. I'm several chapters in and have found it enjoyable. More to come...

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Some books I've been reading...

Raw Family: Victoria, Igor, Sergei & Boutenko
Ten Cents A Dance:Christin Fletcher
Clouds Without Rain; An Ohio Amish Mystery: P.L. Gaus
The Beach House: Jane Green

OPC3 & MultiTech

I finally got my order of OPC3 and MultiTech, along with Might-A-Mins. The girls and I have started on that a few days ago. I will admit, it tastes chemical in a manner, but no more so than any other multivitamin I've taken. I have noticed I feel a bit better overall. No surprise.

MORE...

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Shelter For My Soul



I'm a bit embarrassed to be star struck, but I can't shake it.
There's not much I can say other than that I'm moved by this actor. I think it also has something to do with the fact that I just lost an aunt, and while Heath has been gone for a while, I just recently learned of it. There's something far deeper than Heath that is speaking to me. I believe he's just the manifestation. So pray to our gods...





At the end of my days when I’m called to go,
Into the open arms of the Holy Ghost,
To have lived such a life as I have known,
Fortune follows me, but I’m brave no more.
For my great mistakes I will surely pay,
I’m running low and the devil is on my trail,
When fate delivers me all I’ll ask it for,
Is a place to rest and shelter for my soul.
Oh if I could spend my days,
Free from the prison of your gates,
Then I could die a happy man.
Oh if I could spend my days,
Free from the shadow of my name,
Then I could die happy man.
I am released from this mortal load,
I’ll take my leave but I don’t wanna go.
When fate delivers me all I’ll ask it for,
A place to rest and shelter for my soul.